WHEN HONESTY FOUND ME

There was a time when the joy I had wasn’t real, it felt temporary. I needed something permanent. Nevertheless, it was fun going down memory lane and seeing how far I have come, from a depressed bag to a bundle of joy. Honestly speaking it wasn’t fun, it stirred up negative feelings and past memories that ought to be forgotten. Many amazing opportunities came my way and many beautiful people. I honestly could not keep them in my life because I simply didn’t know myself. I didn’t know how to respond to these opportunities. It felt as though I was the only one lost, I tried finding myself in many things, but they simply gave me a joy that was temporary. I blamed society for making me a victim of fear and confusion; I should have started off by looking at myself first, instead of pointing fingers. But the fun part was pointing fingers because I simply made myself feel so innocent. Once again I am back on memory lane, not to disturb my peace but to make amends. I realized how I responded to all situations; I realized my weaknesses and my strengths. For a while I focused on the weaknesses, meanwhile my strengths over powered them. I decided to be honest with myself, when I was able to define myself and not allowing society to, my joy started transforming, and it felt permanent. It’s a good thing to be honest with yourself, then you can help yourself and you can choose to make new positive memories in life. Now, am happy.